As a counselor and teacher for over 20 years, people have told me some of their greatest secrets. Here are just a few of them.
“I want people to go to Heaven, but I don’t want them to become a Christian and wind up feeling miserable like me!”
This confession was whispered by a woman named Cheryl as tears streamed down her face. No one would ever have expected that she’d kept this secret to herself for years. Cheryl was married to a doctor, had three wonderful children, knew the Bible backwards and forwards, and had a very likeable personality. Yet, Cheryl had ended up with a mental breakdown, by her own admission, because of her Christian beliefs. No matter how hard she tried, Cheryl just couldn’t seem to get Christianity to work for her.
“Last week, I was reading my Bible and praying. But, just five minutes after I finished, I found myself yelling at my husband or kids. What’s wrong with me?”
Shana spoke these words sitting in my counseling office with a puzzled expression on her face. “How is it possible to be shouting at my family right after I’ve felt so spiritual?”
A man named Jake came to see me about a destructive habit he was struggling to overcome. He genuinely loved Jesus and was serving in full-time ministry.
“When I’ve asked other Christians, even my pastor, how to break this habit, they tell me to pray and read my Bible more. But, even though I’ve dramatically increased the amount of time I pray and read the Bible…it hasn’t worked for me. In some ways, I am worse now than before!”
“I thought if I genuinely tried to obey God, then He wouldn’t let anything bad happen to me or my family. Boy…was I wrong.”
Geraldo said these words with a furrowed brow. Ever since he’d decided to get serious about obeying God, it seemed like bad things happened to him more than ever. He didn’t get the promotion his boss had promised and his 4-year-old daughter had just been diagnosed with a rare disease.
Believe me, I understand how Cheryl, Shana, Jake, and Gerald feel, because I’ve been there, too. There was a time in my life when I also harbored two deep secret. Today, I want to tell it to you. For a long time, I was obsessed with these thoughts:
“Sometimes, I wish I wasn’t a Christian, because non-Christians seem so much happier than me.
If this is all there is to being a Christian, it doesn’t work. Something is wrong. I just can’t go on living like this.”
How about you? Have you ever kept private thoughts to yourself about God, your personal life, or your spiritual life that no one knows? Have you ever wondered if there might be something better than the kind of relationship you presently have with God? There is, and it’s in the New Covenant. Explore our website to find out more of how we can encourage you at Grace Life International.