“I want people to go to heaven, but I don’t want them to become a Christian and wind up feeling miserable like me!”
Charlotte whispered this confession as tears streamed down her face. No one would have ever expected that she’d kept this secret to herself for years. Charlotte was married to a lawyer, had four wonderful children, knew the Bible backward and forward, and had a likable personality. Yet by her own admission she had had a mental breakdown because of her Christian beliefs. No matter how hard she tried, Charlotte just couldn’t seem to get Christianity to work for her. When I was asked to meet her at a local hospital, she was obviously depressed as well as confused. Charlotte confided to me what she had never told anyone—she was beginning to lose her faith in God.
“Last week, I was reading my Bible and praying. But just five minutes after I finished, I found myself yelling at my husband and kids. What’s wrong with me?” Shana spoke these words as she was sitting in my counseling office with a puzzled expression on her face. “How is it possible to be shouting at my family right after I’ve felt so spiritual?” she asked. “Why do I get angry so quickly?” Shana is not alone. She echoes the same secrets many sincere men and women have revealed to me in private.
Jake came to see me about a destructive habit he was struggling to overcome. He genuinely loved Jesus and was serving in full-time ministry. Yet his own behavior was kicking his butt.
“When I’ve asked other Christians—even my mentor, a megachurch pastor—how to break this habit, they tell me to pray and read my Bible more. But even though I’ve dramatically increased the amount of time I pray and read the Bible, it hasn’t worked for me. In some ways, I am worse now than before!”
“I thought if I genuinely tried to obey God, then he wouldn’t let anything bad happen to me or my family. Boy, was I wrong.”
Geraldo said these words with a furrowed brow. Ever since he’d decided to get serious about obeying God, it seemed as though bad things happened to him more than ever. He didn’t get the promotion his boss had promised and his four-year-old daughter had just been diagnosed with a rare disease. Geraldo stared at the floor, wondering why God would let these things happen.
Have you ever kept thoughts to yourself about God, your personal life, or your spiritual life? Have you ever wondered if there might be something better than the kind of relationship you presently have with God? Maybe you’ve held these kinds of thoughts deep inside:
- How can I encourage someone else to become a Christian when I don’t have my own life figured out?
- I’ve tried following biblical principles to improve my marriage, but we feel closer to a divorce than to each other.
- I’m afraid to tell my Christian friends I’ve fallen into an overwhelming sense of depression. They might judge me or tell me I just need to trust God more.
As a Christian counselor and speaker for more than twenty years, I’ve listened to hundreds of Christians tell me their innermost secrets. These individuals include sincere people who’ve tried to follow inspiring sermons motivating them to live good Christian lives. They’ve served in their local church, gone on mission trips, and even witnessed to the people around them. Amid all their efforts, however, something still seems missing from their faith, and they don’t know why. The quiet admissions above are some of the most common ones I’ve heard. You could call them secrets Christians never share.
(Copyright Mark Maulding, God’s Best-Kept Secret, pages 11-12)
I invite you to attend my first ever, God’s Best-Kept Secret Conference, based on my book. At the conference, I will speak more about the above and on these topics:
- Freedom by Knowing God Is Not Religious
- Release from the Bondage of Check-List Christianity
- Christianity is Easier from the Three Pillars Of The New Covenant
- Christians Don’t Have a Civil War Raging Inside
- Something Better Than Obligation to Keep The 10 Commandments
- Christians Are Forgiven Before They Ever Sin
- We Can Be Controlled by Our Unknown Lies
The fee to attend the God’s Best-Kept Secret Conference includes the book. (Already have one, give it away to someone!)
Hope to see you soon,
Mark Maulding, President and Founder